EAST RUTHERFORD, N.J. - For much of his hourlong visit with the family of a 6-year-old boy killed in the Connecticut school shootings, New York Giants wide receiver Victor Cruz talked about football, life and young Jack, the child who idolized him.
Tears were shed. Feelings were shared. Cleats and gloves worn by Cruz to honor Jack Pinto at Sunday's game were given to his family.
On Wednesday, Cruz somberly recounted his meeting with Pinto's parents and brother in Newtown, Conn. He struggled in his retelling only when asked about the family's decision to bury the child in the receiver's No. 80 Giants jersey. The father of an infant girl, Cruz stopped for a moment, and his eyes became watery.
"You never go through some circumstances like this and circumstances where a kid faces or a family faces something of this magnitude at their school," Cruz said. "This definitely was the toughest by far."
Jack Pinto was buried on Monday and Cruz telephoned the family to ask whether he could visit on Tuesday.
The family disclosed after Friday's massacre that Cruz was Jack's favorite player. The boy was one of 20 first-graders and six adults killed in the shootings at the Sandy Hook Elementary School.
Cruz drove to Newtown with his fiancee, Elaina Watley, and their daughter, Kennedy.
"I had no expectations. I was a little nervous," Cruz said. "I just didn't know how I was going to be received. You never know when they are going through something like that. You never know how it is going to go down."
Seeing the family outside the home along with some local children made Cruz feel welcomed.
"They were still pretty emotional, crying and stuff like that," Cruz said. "I saw how affected they were by just my presence alone. I got out and gave them the cleats and the gloves and they appreciated it. The older brother [Ben] was still emotional, so I gave them to him."
Cruz had written "Jack Pinto, My Hero" and "R.I.P. Jack Pinto" on his cleats before the Giants' loss Sunday in Atlanta.
The 26-year-old player, best known for his salsa dances after touchdowns, signed autographs for the kids before heading inside.
"I didn't want to go in there and make a speech," Cruz said. "I just wanted to go and spend some time with them and be someone they could talk to, and be someone they can vent to, talk about how [big] fans they are of the team, or different times they watched the Super Bowl."
Cruz spent that part of the visit sitting in the chair where Jack's father sat when he watched the Giants' Super Bowl win over New England in February. It was a day Jack got to see his favorite team win a championship.
"It was just an emotional time," Cruz said. "I spent a little bit of time with them. We got to smile a little bit, which was good for them. It was a time where I just wanted to be a positive voice, a positive light in the tunnel where it can really be negative, so it was a good time. They are a great family and they're relay united at this time and it was good to see."
Cruz said it was strange thinking about a child being buried in his jersey. He did not know how to react. "It leaves you kind of blank," he said. "I am definitely honored by it. I am definitely humbled by it, and it's definitely an unfortunate but humbling experience for me."
Giants coach Tom Coughlin said he was incredibly proud of Cruz for visiting with the Pinto family. "Hopefully some of their grief might at least temporarily be suspended in being able to embrace Victor Cruz," Coughlin said.
Baltimore running back Ray Rice, in a conference call with the New York media about Sunday's game with the Giants, said what Cruz did took heart.
"You've got to be able to put yourself in that family's situation to understand at least what they're going through," Rice said. "That's what it's about. That's something that you don't just say, 'I'm going to do it.' You do it from the heart, from within, and what he did was amazing."